2011 Last Friday

December gonna end its journey in this year. So do I. Year 2011 gave me a lot of personal accomplishment more over with an unexpected gift, a marriage, a husband, a new family. Thank u Allah SWT for everything, EVERYTHING.

I've achieved a lot this year and going to make my personal goal for next year. What have you achieved this year? What is your personal goal next year?

I'll leave here with beautiful song from SNSD - Time Machine

Have a delightful holiday everyone <3<3<3

.Cheers.

Personal Pleasure

I loved to talk and share with my partner about a lot of things. It was 'Personal Pleasure' that we talked about. As human sometimes we easily get bored on doing the same exact things or we easily enthusiastic doing new things and then we get bored again. There's tons of things that you could do to have your own pleasure in order to kill boredom.

For a mother who already have son or daughter. Seeing their children at home when they go home after work must be their personal pleasure. I have a lot of things that trigger my enthusiasm on new things but I realize I could never do a lot of things. I usually talk to my self and later I found out what I (REALLY) like to do.

It is my partner that gave me a very simple answer. He said "I think my pleasure is cooking and sports. I like cooking and enjoy cooking. When people say that my food is delicious I am very happy. As for sport, I'd like to do it again but I feel lazy recently."

I never thought of my personal pleasure. But definitely I have a lot of things that I like to do. I like photography and traveling a lot. But I choose to be a very smart photographer and a very thoughtful traveler. One day, I really want to have and buy a DSLR camera so I can capture beautiful things. I like traveling but It's hard for me to spend money and do a lot of traveling. One time, my partner told me to just buy a DSLR camera but in the end I reject it as I said a common digital camera is enough. To me, producing a good picture using a common digital camera is my personal pleasure. My journey to Thailand opened up my eye. Taking pictures while adoring how Allah SWT create universe is kinda disturbing so I like to picturised it in my memory. A picture just an evidence to tell people that you've been there.

Another personal pleasure my partner told me. Cleaning the house is my personal pleasure. Believe it or not. I love to do household stuff, I enjoy the most washing dishes. I rarely get tired from this. Plus leave me alone with music then I'll make my hand work immediately :) Maybe I am not suitable to work at office :p .

Writing also one of my personal pleasure. Along with mountain-breeze and sweet hot tea. Morning or afternoon never a big matter. I like a little sunshine as a dessert.

So, what is your personal pleasure?

Mom

She's always there

Saya ga pernah berpikir akan kehilangan ibu di usia muda. Usia dimana calon-calon pemberontakan masa muda sedang menanamkan benihnya. Jadi bisa dibayangkan apa yang mungkin saya lalui.

Tujuh tahun waktu yang panjang sampai akhirnya saya mengerti arti kematian. Kematian ibu saya. Kenapa akhirnya mengerti? Waktu yang membuat saya mengerti bahwa kematian adalah hal yang pasti. Pasti pula untuk di ikhlasi. 

Sebulan sudah sejak saya menikah dan masih kental di benak saya bahwa gambaran ibu saya tetap ada di bara dada kerabat. Selalu akan ada air mata setiap kali mengingatnya tapi waktu itu saya sudah kuras habis air mata. Mama tidak akan jadi alasan bagi saya untuk menangisi pernikahan yang tidak sempat mama saksikan. Tapi saya salah.

Hari saya menikah, saya awalnya tidak menangis karena mama saya tapi saya menangis terharu mengingat dosa saya pada bapak saya saat saya meminta izin menikah. Tapi ternyata keharuan yang ada membuat mereka yang hadir turut mengurai air mata. Saya yakin setiap ibu adalah pribadi yang baik begitu juga dengan mama saya. She's a very kind personal. Saya rasa mama adalah alasan setiap mereka yang datang dan lihat saya menikah menjadi menangis. Masih ingat betul diingatan saya mereka-mereka yang mengurai air mata dan semburat-semburat ketidakpercayaan.

Setiap anak akan mengagungkan orang tua terutama ibu, ibu, dan ibu. Bagi mereka yang ibu nya masih hidup sangat beruntung masih bisa membagi momen kehidupan dengan orang tercinta. Bagi saya, ketidakhadiran mama secara fisik menyuarakan rasa syukur yang luar biasa. Saya bersyukur Allah SWT ambil mama di waktunya. Saya bersyukur diperlihatkan dengan jelas hasil kebaikan-kebaikan yang mama tinggalkan. Saya bersyukur mama masih hidup dengan jelas di hati, pikiran dan perasaan orang tuanya, kakak adiknya, sahabat-sahabatnya dan anak-anaknya.

Saya bersyukur mama meninggal meninggalkan senyum dan hati yang baik bagi orang-orang terdekatnya sehingga anak-anaknya masih dengan jelas merasakan cinta yang ada karena mama. 

You're the best. We'll see you soon.

Love,

Fina

Hummed

I always find my self in tears because of this song

안녕!

 안녕!

Good bye single life. 3 days before my wedding day. 

This week I can say a week where I feel so much comfortable with my life. A week to enjoy my last single life. I cry. I laugh. I smile. I love. 

I'd love to share but no matter how many people I talk to won't enough. I do a lot of self-reflection. A lot more than I used to have. Since I am not a good speaker, I'll just write.

I'm going to live in a new room of mine that I never thought it'll come fast. My own room, my own family. Thus, I thank Allah SWT for everything in my life, everything. I thank my mom for leaving me in a such early way though I most of the time missing you like crazy, hoping you're gonna awake, craving for your food and your hug I never had. I thank dad for your pluses and minuses to raise me in a condition without a mom which I realize that must be the hardest thing to do after mom passed away. I wish you to know more about me. I thank my brothers for their great presence, they're my only reason for living. I'll miss to play, being goofy, to take a little care of you every time I go home. Even last night I cried every time I imagined I couldn't do such things, kill the mosquitoes to make sure you sleep well, put up your blanket, close your window, turn off your computer, and other small things. I'm sorry for not being able to be such a good role model for you, I'll become a more mature and understanding sister. I thank my aunts from my mom's side for taking a very good care of me, filling up an empty room in my life and being such a wonderful substitute mother for me. I pray the best for you and your family and always blessed. I thank my cousins for living up my life and accompany me in my up and down moment. I thank a lot for my best friends for being such a wonderful best-friend who accept the 'real' me and never judge me wrong. The last, I thank my husband-to-be for knowing me from A to Z. Accept the 'REAL' me in every condition. We'll leave healthy and happy now and after. For my future family, please treat me well. Saranghae <3<3<3 

Many love,

Fina

I wish that people know more about me. But we'll see where life gonna take me. Despite every pain I had, I'm so much grateful with my life. I'm going to be a more mature human. Thank you.

Sexy Back

Don't find me weird. I don't have lots of stuff to do today at office as usual I browse and search something. Yes.. Yes.. You find me like sexy back.. I always amazed how God can create human in such perfect way. This time I'll share I like the most from human body: A SEXY BACK.


Somehow I like that curvy back with visible backbone line ...As for man, I love Taylor Lautner sexy back.. ^^V

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I leave you here with How To Get A Strong and Sexy Back ...

Cheers,

Vie

Mocking!

 You'll remember for being hurt (by people) but not when you hurt people.

So make sure you shut your mouth every time you want to mock people.

Floral Hand Bouquet

A month to go before my wedding day. I keep on thinking so hard for something not worth to think hard. To relieve some stress I've been blog walking and searching beautiful things. Well, I am not planning to have hand bouquet toss at my wedding day since I love flower, I want to keep it until the ceremony end. 

Actually, It was my aunt who gave me the idea of having plastic or handmade hand bouquet using different material so that I can keep it forever in my room. So I was looking some in web and end up visit some like etsy and else. 

 

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 My brother is in Europe now and I ask him if he passed by a bridal shop to get one hand bouquet.

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My favorite is one made from fabrics doesn't matter it's a silk or satin but I like cotton magnolias best. Which one is your favorite?



Cheers,


Vie

Melihat Ibu dari Seorang Piatu

Melihat dunia dari seorang piatu.

Ini hidup dari sudut pandang saya. Saya sudah sampai di titik kehidupan dimana orang datang dan pergi: Hidup dan mati itu pasti. Ibu adalah Ibu. Ibu yang disebutkan 3 kali lebih banyak dari Bapak. Ibu yang bagi kebanyakan orang jadi pusat gravitasi. Apa jadinya kita tanpa pusat gravitasi?

Pernahkah membayangkan hidup tanpa ibu? Sekali-kali bayangkan lah.

Bertemu dengan cerita para anak tentang ibunya seringkali (sekarang) tidak membuat saya iri. Anak yang hidup menanggung beban psikologis orang tua hasil dari gaya hidup masa lalu. Anak yang hidup merantau jauh tanpa teman dalam kesusahan yang terhalang oleh nominal uang. Anak yang dibesarkan atas kasih sayang pembantu dan supir yang ibu nya asik cekakak cekikik dengan sahabatnya. Anak yang ibunya jadi tameng hidup atas segala persoalan yang disebabkan anaknya. Anak yang dilimpahkan kasih sayang yang tidak menjerumuskan nya menjadi anak yang manja. Saya sangat menikmati melihat kasih sayang ibu dan anak, menjadikannya contoh kehidupan yang membuat saya banyak belajar.

Saya punya ibu. Tentu. Hanya saja waktunya melimpahkan cintanya pada anak-anaknya usai lebih dulu. Pasti ada masa dimana saya terpuruk dan kehilangan. Tak ada yang disesali justru ada banyak yang saya syukuri sekarang ini.

Saat banyak ibu yang pusing memikirkan anaknya naik kelas atau tidak, masuk sekolah unggulan atau tidak, ibu ku tidak perlu merasakan itu lagi.

Saat banyak ibu yang menjadi tempat mendengar keluhan-keluhan tentang ke labilan anak-anak mereka, ibu ku tidak perlu mendengar hal-hal itu.

Saat banyak ibu yang bangga saat anak nya wisuda dan menikmati gaji pertama mereka, aku justru dengan bangga bilang "Mah, aku lulus"

Saat banyak ibu berselisih pendapat dengan anaknya saat mengurus pernikahan, ibu ku tidak perlu seperti itu dengan ku.

Saat banyak anak meminta kekurangan uang untuk makan dan senang-senang kepada ibu mereka, aku cukup bersenang-senang dengan uang hasil keringatku.

Saat banyak anak yang lebih memilih makan diluar daripada makan masakan ibu dirumah, ibu ku tidak perlu masak.

Saat banyak anak yang lebih memilih bermain bersama teman-temannya dan kesepian dirumah, ibu ku tidak perlu jadi penunggu rumah

Saat banyak ibu shopping dengan anaknya, ibu ku tidak harus shopping dengan ku. Aku tidak suka belanja.

Saat banyak ibu yang harus banyak mengelus dada saat meminta tolong anaknya melakukan sesuatu, ibu ku tidak. 

Saat banyak anak mencari ibu untuk membantu menyelesaikan masalah.You know who I have.

Saat banyak ibu menjadi tempat sharing bagi sang anak. You know to whom I share.

Sekarang saat muda kebanyakan dari kita akan merasakan kasih sayang Ibu yang luar biasa. Bagi seorang ibu, anak adalah titipan Allah yang luar biasa. Banyak hal yang beliau lakukan untuk kebahagiaan sang anak. Bagi saya (seorang anak), ibu juga sesuatu yang luar biasa dari Allah. Banyak hal yang akan saya lakukan untuk kebahagiaan ibu. Masa ibu saya menunjukkan rasa cintanya memang usai lebih awal justru masa saya menunjukkan rasa cinta lebih dalam lebih awal. 

Seringkali saat kita muda, kita terlalu asik dengan pergaulan dan kehidupan kita. Seringkali kita lupa menunjukkan hal terbaik bagi ibu, dan mulai menyadari betapa berat perjuangan ibu saat kita mulai menjadi ibu. Seringkali kita lupa untuk mengkhawatirkan ibu lebih banyak dari ibu mengkhawatirkan kita. Ibu yang disebut 3 kali. Ibu. Ibu. Ibu.

"No matter how bad your mom treated you. Love her as much as she hurt you. Even better if your mom is a kind one."

Saya menjadi mencintai Allah lebih banyak. Bahkan lebih banyak lagi saat berterima kasih Allah mengambilnya diusia 38 tahun. Thank Allah, she's a kind mom.

I love you

-fina-

How I Found My Half

 Yupe one month left. Excited. Nervous. In some conditions are even more relax.

Satu bulan lagi. The only things that make me worried wasn't the wedding preparation. Harus saya akui persiapan menikah memang membuat stress tapi itu hanya sekian persennya. Saya cukup santai dan tenang.

Lemme share how I met my half-mate. Sebagian pasangan gundah gulana bertanya-tanya "si dia benar-benar pasangan hidup saya bukan ya". Saya bersyukur dengan pasang surut hubungan partner saya hanya dia. Suatu kali tante saya bertanya "Mbak, apa yang kelebihan dari dia?" Terdengarnya seperti pertanyaan yang simpel tapi begitu mencoba jawab saya sedikit bingung.

Saya: "hmmm.... dia itu kekurangannya ini itu ini itu"

Tante: "Bukaaaannn! Kelebihan nya apa?"

Saya: "kelebihannya ya.........apa ya" 

Tante: "yang membuat merasa cocok aja deh"

Saya: "dia satu-satunya orang yang membuat saya nyaman. Nyaman secara prinsip-prinsip hidup. Udah mengenal laki-laki dengan berbagai macam hal yang sama tapi kalau beda prinsip susah juga."

Ternyata tanpa sadar lebih mudah mengemukakan kekurangan seseorang dibandingkan kelebihan seseorang. Buat saya, saat di tanya kelebihan seseorang dan harus menjawab dengan jawaban dia baik, ganteng, pengertian. Jawaban-jawaban seperti itu terdengar klise. I mean you're not going to have a relationship with someone who's not kind and bla bla bla.

Saya percaya bahwa kenyaman adalah hal penting dalam suatu hubungan. Saya dengan partner saya sudah hampir 9 tahun jadi sudah banyak mengenal kekurangan masing-masing. Apa rasanya pacaran 9 tahun. Biasa saja. It just number. Tapi yang paling terasa adalah kedewasaan dalam menjalin suatu hubungan. We're best friend for each other. Buat saya kenyamanan untuk hal-hal prinsip lebih penting dari pada hal-hal yang berbau fisik. Hal-hal berbau fisik (begitulah saya menyebutnya) sebagai contoh adalah kesukaan/hobi, kebiasaan. Akhirnya mengerti apa yang diributin kalau orang yang cerai dengan alasan beda prinsip. Buat saya, hal-hal prinsip sebagai contoh tujuan hidup, bagaimana memandang hidup, bagaimana menjalani hidup, bagaimana hubungan dengan Sang Pencipta. Setiap orang pasti memiliki perbedaan, daripada meributkan hal-hal kecil yang memang berbeda, alangkah baiknya menerima perbedaan yang ada sebagai bagian melengkapi satu sama lain. Me and my partner, secara hal-hal fisik kami sangat jauh berbeda tapi secara prinsip kami sama. That's why we're together. Saya sudah punya waktu latihan selama 9 tahun untuk menerima perbedaan hal-hal fisik yang awal-awalnya bisa bikin saya nangis darah (*hiperbola). Now that kind of things don't bother me.

Some people like to share their stories, I love it because I can learn something too. Believe me I'm still learning. Penting buat bertemu dengan seseorang yang memiliki tujuan yang sama dengan kita jadi kita tau laki-laki mana yang perlu diperjuangkan. Do TONS of self-reflection before asking for more to your partner. COMMUNICATE what you want and what your partner want. Komunikasi itu penting. Sangat penting. Banyak perempuan yang merasa ketakutan ketika harus bertanya atau sekedar sharing dengan pasangannya untuk hal-hal yang sedikit serius. They're human and they must learn too.

Ketika ditanya apa perbedaannya saat pacaran dan mau menikah. I don't feel INSECURE anymore and I love him more. Rasa aman dan nyaman yang paling dominan terasa sekarang. Kita bisa menghabiskan banyak waktu membahas sesuatu yang prinsipil dan sangat bersyukur punya hidup dan pasangan yang luar biasa. Banyak hal yang orang lain tidak tahu dari saya dan saya sangat nyaman untuk memperlihatkannya pada pasangan saya. Banyak hal yang seringkali tidak bisa saya bicarakan dengan orang lain dan hanya mau saya bicarakan kepada partner saya. "I love to have my other half personality in secret and only reveal it to people who are open-minded enough to know me."

9 years. I feel grateful. 

Bisous,

Vie

Recharge

Recharge. 충전(baca: chungjeon)

RECHARGE (verb)
The verb RECHARGE has 2 senses:
1. load anew with ammunition,
2. charge anew

In life we sometimes take roller coaster ride and at the end of the day when you feel exhausted, you want to re-gain your energy. Just like battery (of a cellphone), you need to plug in with electricity in order to fill the (battery) bar full. It will work even with one bar.

Like the battery,we, human also need to recharge. Usually when you meet your loved one, you'll automatically fully recharge. Family (Mom, Dad, Brothers, Sisters), Best-friend, and our half soul are definitely our electricity. While the battery need electricity, human need what so-called affection.

HUG
A hug is a form of physical intimacy, that usually involves closing or holding the arms around the neck, back, or waist of another person; if more than two persons are involved, this is referred to as a group hug. A hug, sometimes in association with a kiss, eye contact or other gestures, is a form of nonverbal communication. Depending on culture, context and relationship, a hug can indicate familiarity, love, affection or friendship.^[1] One person may hug another as an indication of support, comfort, and consolation. A hug can be a demonstration of affection and emotional warmth, sometimes arising out of joy or happiness at meeting someone. Sometimes hugs are a romantic exchange.

To me, a HUG is one of affection I love the most. If I can I want to exchange something with my mom hugs. I'm not that in love with kiss or any other form to show love and affection. I love a tight hugs. Please give me a lots of hugsss :p

KISS
A kiss is the act of pressing one's lips against the lips or other body parts of another or of an object. Cultural connotations of kissing vary widely. Depending on the culture and context, a kiss can express sentiments of love, passion, affection, respect, greeting, friendship, and good luck, among many others. In some situations a kiss is a ritual, formal or symbolic gesture indicating devotion, respect or greeting, as in the case of a bride and groom kissing at the conclusion of a wedding ceremony or national leaders kissing each other in greeting, and in many other situations.

There's many way of kissing (kiss on the cheek, forehead, hair, lips, eyes) but you know kiss on the lips seems......... 

light bulb kiss

I only mention kiss and hug cuz I find it's a common thing to do. I like hugs the most as I feel every time I hug my loved one every pain that makes me weary will fade away. As for kiss, I just like to see a couple kissing, I admit I have kissing picture in my laptop but mostly are scene from a movie. I love to see how people immerse with their partner through a kiss.

*Credit on the picture*

I love how this picturized when couple exchange energy for each other. Chungjeon!!!

I love how the idea of "chungjeon" after I watched korean drama - The Greatest Love starring Cha Seung Won and Gong Hyo Jin. Check here for detail chungjeon.



Cheers,

Vie

Time Will Heal

Love doesn't stay with someone who intentionally hurt.
It'll fade in time.
Love doesn't stay with someone who intentionally do nothing.
It'll broke in time.
Love doesn't stay without your permission.
It'll take some time.

Time will heal. Time is our best-friends (when we're broken)

Don't worry. You're human—your memory is no more than a sieve. Time heals all wounds for your kind. -New Moon-

I hate to see people broken-heart. But this is life. We born we die. So does love. 

Am not broken yet wounded but time will heal.

Bisous,

Vie

Cha Seung Won

Yup another middle-age man I love to see. (To me) he's Korean version of Jhonny Depp. Something may not right, he's forties something and look totally hot. I'd love to see his faithfulness to his wife and children.

You may enjoy this too. Just don't drool. :p

Credit on the picture

Check some Korean Actors that might melt you >> The Man


Bisous,

Vie