Sorry.

I end up regretting a lot of options that I take in my life. Only some people can let me makes mistakes. The rest come and go as they wishes leaving me with a broken heart.

Relationship. These couple in relationship should have the same thought, same understanding, some same things. But when you find you are too different. Nope I guess the problem is in me. I mostly feel I don't deserved being loved by someone. My bad.

I emotionally cheated with myself. Some people just can't accept it. Some people just don't understand it. Some people don't stay.

I prefer someone to walk side by side with me.

Love is in the air!

L.O.V.E

I love to see people's life. I love to see pictures because I can see what people can't see in reality. SO yes, I've just walking around from one album to another album. Seeing people in love I want to have mine too ^^V

Ahhh I just chat with my friend and it makes me forget what I want to write. I like to see people in relationship picture but I like more couple who has married or engaged or lived together and off course relationship with families-brothers, brother and sister, son and dad, mom and son, mom and daughter. Why? because I don't have so much memories with it. But that's life! Even everytime I see those kind of relationship I always happy but at the same time it makes a huge hole in my heart. My missing part. My missing pieces.

Somehow that missing part makes me want to make my own family and owning my own home. But marriage isn't a simple thing. It creates more scarification and effort but worthed. So take care for every L.O.V.E that you have now. You never know what might happen when it's gone....


I L.O.V.E You Life with all the pain that leave scars and all the joy that leave indefinite embrace.

I Love You My Life even sometimes I try not to hate you and still grateful for you.


Love,

Aquarian Girl

Fast Forward!

Wew, Time flies so fast. It's already the last week of October and arrrggggg!!

Well, If I can I really want to skip this year, fast forward till next years. O shit I will be 25 yo. No fiancee, No wedding plan, Nothing. Well, If I met the Mr. Right One I will get married soon. So please adults, don't ruin my dream wedding day..hahhahha..

Hmmm, I am excited for something. But I have to keep my mouth shut because It's still a SECRET!!! Some of important people in my life already know it. Thank you Allah SWT. for making me have another option in my life. Thank you dad, thank you tita and fam, thank you mama uni and fam, thank you to my Pisces, Scorpio, Gemini and Sagittarius man in my life....smooooccchhhhhh....

I am excited to have a whole 2010 reflection, I through a lot of things and self-reflection is so thrilled me. hihhhi. I am still struggling to manage my feeling. my self. my mind. but managing love is so damn fucking hard. but I have no other option unless I enjoy it.

To my mom, I L.O.V.E You so much...
next month will be your 10 years ...such a long time...
We will be together soon or later.. and I hope at that time I can know more about you..

Hmmm..... I love my life. Thank you Allah SWT. I am grateful for every joy with its laugh and pain with its tears.

And Oh I am so Aquarius..hahha...

Cheers,

-Aquarian Girl-

Hugs. And Cry

So yeah that's what exactly I had last night. I feel my process of life and some problems in my life gave me a great headache within this week.

I meet my moment where I lost all my senses. my passion. my everything.
I feel alone and I want to be alone. Pushing away those my beloved people. But that's how it's happen.

Though I still can feel nothing. But I am dying having my beloved people back. I am going home today and continue hibernation later.

I love and miss my Pisces Man, Scorpio Man, Gemini Man, and Sagitarius Man.

Cheers,
Aquarian Girl

8 Years

19-10-2002
It was full moon
It was young and free
It was so lovely
It was you and I for one us

19-10-2010
It was the same full moon
It was growing and dying
It was so intriguing
It was never the same you and I

The journey was long as we end up arguing and comes up always with big results. But he still the love of my life. I thank God for sending him. But it's time to grow more in our feet. Let's introspect our self for the better us.


<3<3<3

10 Years

It's been 10 years since my mom passed away. Today, something makes me reflect my life with/out her.

I was 14 years old. And it was November 14th. 10 Years ago.

I realize I never really know my mom. Who is she. How is she.
and maybe She didn't really know me. Who am I. How am I.
But she stay longer in my heart while my mind start fading.

Fake!

"I am sick with how people lived in here"
That was my tweet last night when I moved from Plaza Senayan to Senayan City. I tweeted just when I entered the mall. Really I am sick with how people lived in here either men or women, boys or girls, adults, children. They are so fake. I don't mention all but mostly people here are fake.

Ga kebayang sama saya bisa hidup tanpa ingat tujuan akhir kita. Walaupun gw ga bilang gw udah 100 persen bener. Tapi ada ga sie hidup yang lebih penting dari cuma berpakaian rapi, belanja setiap waktu, ke mall tiap hari even buat makan aja gw yakin tiap foodcourt pasti rame. Gaya hidup yang berat.

This country really not my life style. Ga bisa jalan di trotoar tanpa takut diculik atau di copet lebih parah lagi di bunuh. Belum lagi pas jalan di trotoar yang dihirup bukannya udara segar yang ada malah asap knalpot. Jalan kaki disini tuh pemandangannya penuh mobil..macet belum lagi polusi suara..arrrggghhhh...

Ada info kalo Jakarta bakal tenggelam. Bukannya nyukurin sie. tapi orang-orang disini harus kena batunya dulu baru bertindak. Negara ini perlu ada di titik nol supaya ga mentang" dikasih alam yang kaya raya dan ga bijaksana menggunakannya. This country is crazy. A mess. most of all FAKE.