Death

Death.

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I learn about life from losing a loved one. Mom's death taught me a lot (might write it one by one someday). But my grandma's death taught me one thing (only) but loud and clear: TO ALWAYS BE KIND. no matter what. We can only control what we can (being kind) what others do is not in our power. (55:60) "Is there any reward for good other than good?"

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I should've been more kind to her.  Should've been more understanding of her. Were thing that I regretted. She raised me after all. She taught me a lot of stuff. She engrained cooking in me. She filled my childhood with togetherness (something I longed nowadays). .

Forgiving myself was hard as I was young and foolish. Life is short. Life is not worth beating myself up. Life is not worth fighting with other. So I move on. .

I am sorry Ibu, I should have treat you better. Miss you. You are forever in my prayer. Al fatihah.