2011 Last Friday

December gonna end its journey in this year. So do I. Year 2011 gave me a lot of personal accomplishment more over with an unexpected gift, a marriage, a husband, a new family. Thank u Allah SWT for everything, EVERYTHING.

I've achieved a lot this year and going to make my personal goal for next year. What have you achieved this year? What is your personal goal next year?

I'll leave here with beautiful song from SNSD - Time Machine

Have a delightful holiday everyone <3<3<3

.Cheers.

Personal Pleasure

I loved to talk and share with my partner about a lot of things. It was 'Personal Pleasure' that we talked about. As human sometimes we easily get bored on doing the same exact things or we easily enthusiastic doing new things and then we get bored again. There's tons of things that you could do to have your own pleasure in order to kill boredom.

For a mother who already have son or daughter. Seeing their children at home when they go home after work must be their personal pleasure. I have a lot of things that trigger my enthusiasm on new things but I realize I could never do a lot of things. I usually talk to my self and later I found out what I (REALLY) like to do.

It is my partner that gave me a very simple answer. He said "I think my pleasure is cooking and sports. I like cooking and enjoy cooking. When people say that my food is delicious I am very happy. As for sport, I'd like to do it again but I feel lazy recently."

I never thought of my personal pleasure. But definitely I have a lot of things that I like to do. I like photography and traveling a lot. But I choose to be a very smart photographer and a very thoughtful traveler. One day, I really want to have and buy a DSLR camera so I can capture beautiful things. I like traveling but It's hard for me to spend money and do a lot of traveling. One time, my partner told me to just buy a DSLR camera but in the end I reject it as I said a common digital camera is enough. To me, producing a good picture using a common digital camera is my personal pleasure. My journey to Thailand opened up my eye. Taking pictures while adoring how Allah SWT create universe is kinda disturbing so I like to picturised it in my memory. A picture just an evidence to tell people that you've been there.

Another personal pleasure my partner told me. Cleaning the house is my personal pleasure. Believe it or not. I love to do household stuff, I enjoy the most washing dishes. I rarely get tired from this. Plus leave me alone with music then I'll make my hand work immediately :) Maybe I am not suitable to work at office :p .

Writing also one of my personal pleasure. Along with mountain-breeze and sweet hot tea. Morning or afternoon never a big matter. I like a little sunshine as a dessert.

So, what is your personal pleasure?

Mom

She's always there

Saya ga pernah berpikir akan kehilangan ibu di usia muda. Usia dimana calon-calon pemberontakan masa muda sedang menanamkan benihnya. Jadi bisa dibayangkan apa yang mungkin saya lalui.

Tujuh tahun waktu yang panjang sampai akhirnya saya mengerti arti kematian. Kematian ibu saya. Kenapa akhirnya mengerti? Waktu yang membuat saya mengerti bahwa kematian adalah hal yang pasti. Pasti pula untuk di ikhlasi. 

Sebulan sudah sejak saya menikah dan masih kental di benak saya bahwa gambaran ibu saya tetap ada di bara dada kerabat. Selalu akan ada air mata setiap kali mengingatnya tapi waktu itu saya sudah kuras habis air mata. Mama tidak akan jadi alasan bagi saya untuk menangisi pernikahan yang tidak sempat mama saksikan. Tapi saya salah.

Hari saya menikah, saya awalnya tidak menangis karena mama saya tapi saya menangis terharu mengingat dosa saya pada bapak saya saat saya meminta izin menikah. Tapi ternyata keharuan yang ada membuat mereka yang hadir turut mengurai air mata. Saya yakin setiap ibu adalah pribadi yang baik begitu juga dengan mama saya. She's a very kind personal. Saya rasa mama adalah alasan setiap mereka yang datang dan lihat saya menikah menjadi menangis. Masih ingat betul diingatan saya mereka-mereka yang mengurai air mata dan semburat-semburat ketidakpercayaan.

Setiap anak akan mengagungkan orang tua terutama ibu, ibu, dan ibu. Bagi mereka yang ibu nya masih hidup sangat beruntung masih bisa membagi momen kehidupan dengan orang tercinta. Bagi saya, ketidakhadiran mama secara fisik menyuarakan rasa syukur yang luar biasa. Saya bersyukur Allah SWT ambil mama di waktunya. Saya bersyukur diperlihatkan dengan jelas hasil kebaikan-kebaikan yang mama tinggalkan. Saya bersyukur mama masih hidup dengan jelas di hati, pikiran dan perasaan orang tuanya, kakak adiknya, sahabat-sahabatnya dan anak-anaknya.

Saya bersyukur mama meninggal meninggalkan senyum dan hati yang baik bagi orang-orang terdekatnya sehingga anak-anaknya masih dengan jelas merasakan cinta yang ada karena mama. 

You're the best. We'll see you soon.

Love,

Fina