Day.

Life is funny. I should be grateful for whatever it is.

"I learned through people's life, people's mistake but the best I learned from my own mistake."

Every person process of life is different. I am grateful for what I've been through including joy and pain. I almost 25 and heading to self-actualization. I've been very grateful that I've spent my teenage phase rudely (if I can say it like that). I used to be someone who doesn't like studying and spending most of my time in early 15 to my last 22 just after I graduate am entering my new phase. 7 years of my-having-fun-age is passed by. Mostly I spent it for lock in one-man relationship, billiard, translating, guiding foreigner, English... I used to be someone with rockstar attitude showing rebellion and default craziness. :D. But that's me, really I don't need you to judge how I deal with my past life. Since last year am not really interesting in what you could call major having fun such as clubbing, music concerts, shopping or what ever you called things-to-make-myself-fun.


Suddenly I get this thinking on my way to my room after work. This is why I like walking.


I found out some of people I recognize are "late" to have fun. I don't judge it's right or wrong. Hell like I care.

I found a man really into to clubbing. Almost clubbing everyday. I thought of him 'a village boy come to a sin city'. Fascinating. Yes, Jakarta is fascinating. Though it's a city filled lonely people. Another man is really crazy in clubbing in a good club. Having a deep puff. Becoming a real active smoker. I found my friend real frustrated in his/her partner. Trying to bitching with another partner. I found those unique person being crazy in one or another thing. Maybe there's a time when you can't utter what really happen in you, but surround you really notice it.

"I go to club but ain't party goer

I smoke but ain't a smoker

I drink but ain't drunk

I am thinking that makes me a thinker" -anonymous-

Really, It's their process of life though I remember we own ourself no matter how hard it is.

Life is short. And our passage of life is fast. So keep up. Once am having a new passage of life am not gonna wasting my time by unnecessity have fun. This time am doing it with full responsibility.

Yes am just only almost 25 but I sound old. I am. No matter how many people say am young, but it's myself sound old. Sometime in our life we'll meet different phase with other. The loved one will stay no matter bit is our process for them.

Thank you for all the love, hugs and kiss. My life never a chaos.


Bisous,


Aquarian girl