Being Underestimate

I always meet people who underestimate me. Moreover in my earlier age, people are underestimate my ability, my appearance even my name. 

I hate people when they mocked my name, they playing it to be Sofiana = Sop Kaki Ayam or they change my name Fina to Pina (in Sundanese way) so I growth with hatred to people mocked my name and even I hate my name.

As I grow by teenager, people underestimate my appearance. I might not be the most beautiful girl ever exist, but I am not pretty damn care about it. but still the way people see me kinda disturbing my serenity. I might not having famous friends or what the 'Mean Girl Movie' have-a bunch of beautiful and handsome friend. I might not always using branded stuff or buying expensive food. Maybe because I was modest outside I am unseen for some people eyes. But I had branded stuff. I ate at expensive restaurant. I did shopping a lot. I did what mostly famous friends do. Spending my parents or grandparents money without thinking. But I still own my own money through help my grandparents work. Once in my senior time, I was dating a pretty good looking high school boy who most girl would fall for him. There are lot friends mocked him. Like "Are you kidding me, you're dating her!" or "Are you really dating her, why her?" So yes I growth with hatred to people mocked my appearance.

When I was at college, I meet people underestimate my ability. People underestimate because my major was infamous, because I wasn't be able to be an achievers. But fuck them! And Even when I was entering working life people mocked my major, my universities.

 

Here I am, I proudly pronounce my name is Fina Sofiana. I am proudly with my appearance, why, because it's hard to people to recognize me at first shot or shocked people esp for those who underestimate me earlier. I am changing a lot and still continuing. My ability, brought me to meet a lot of people from different country-this make some people who underestimate my appearance acknowledge me. Those who remain in silent for my existence, they started say ahhhhh. But still, some people underestimate me because I am not a not-too-high-GPA person. But I was there people, I worked at International place and interviewed at Brunei Embassy. I was that person who you mocked and underestimate. Those who choose me are believe in me that I have something more than just appearance, I have the ability to stand up while you keep mocking and underestimating me. I still meet people who underestimate me and those people will always there. Well, see you in the future..

Don't underestimate people because we never know what s/he will be in the future.

Cheers,