Heavy Mind

It seems that everything that you do to understand one situation is never enough. One keep asking to be understood without understanding to others.

A Break

Maybe I need a break

Maybe I need a stop

or Maybe I dont need anything

But things for sure that my heart my mind and my soul are not in a great condition. Ga tau karena pandemi atau karena bottled up emotions yang jadi meleber kemana2 selama pandemi ini. Rasanya lelaaaah sekali. Rasanya apa yang selama ini dilakuin ga cukup baik. Ga cukup baik sampai2 mengorbankan diri sendiri. Many times I put myself last dan mentingin orang lain. To make sure the progress well. Tapi niat baik kita belum tentu selalu diterima dengan baik, bisa jadi malah jadi mengekang. Ini aku yang ga bersyukur atau memang ini jalan hidup yang dipilih buat aku. Apapun itu, I feel disconnected. With the world. With the environment. With the family. With my kids. With my husband. No matter how many kdrama I watched as a me time didnt even able to put me at ease.