My Own Rome

Yes, love with everything needs understanding. And yes if there is no understanding there's no love.

Isn't love the biggest and heaviest part in your back pack? Isn't love take too much understanding? Isn't understanding create weariness? Isn't weariness lead you to boredom? and when boredom hit your faith, don't you want to get away for all of it?

Yes, I am here. Fighting with a new form of self-ego. I don't blame anyone but myself. am Craving to get away from what I have now. All of it, work, home, relationship. I want to get away to find my new home where i don't need to worry how i look, what i wear, whose i make friends with and other stuffy stuff. I want someone who doesn't know my past and my future, someone who see my present. Someone who'll run if I run and walk if I walk. Someone from outer my world. I need to see the outer world cuz my world is narrow.

I am stuff with the need to call, to text, to meet in order to fill lonesome. I am longing to meet someone that I can talk anything and do anything without worrying that person like it or not.  I am longing for someone who wait for me not I am the one who wait. I need to be far away from breakable faith and put the worry of being cheated again away. I am on my highest self-ego. I'll let you alone chasing me this time. I'll run to It where I can feel heat and warm. I am tired of cold this time.

p.s. o shit my english worsen

A Friend Without Aims

"A friend is someone who doesn't care about what you wear, how much money do you earn, where do you work, whose you make friends with"

That was my facebook status recently. Well again I got inspired from my surroundings. Yeah jadi ini lah hasil berkumpul-kumpul kemarin pada saat buka bareng. Di satu tempat yang sama ada beberapa group buka bersama yang memang beberapa gw kenal dan (mungkin) mereka kenal gw. Haha. Jadi seperti ini lah gambaran yang gw dapet. Dari beberapa yang ada gw memilih mendudukan diri gw di kumpulan teman-teman yang kalau bersama mereka gw ga akan repot mereka akan mikir apa. Pusing klo duduk diantara orang-orang yang sedikit-sedikit berkomentar tentang apa yang lo pake, bagian kerjaan lo, berapa gaji lo, dan siapa temen-temen lo.

So I set my but with my-first year in high school-friends which take a long time for me to meet them. I frequently absent every-time they hold some meetings. Melihat mereka gw bisa merasakan perubahan-perubahan di tiap individu dari terakhir gw bertatap muka dengan mereka. Yang paling excited buat orang adalah dimana lo kerja, dengan begitu mereka bisa tau berapa gaji lo. Pembicaraan akan berbelok menjadi saling membangga-banggakan apa yang mereka dapat, apa yang mereka lakukan, apa yang mereka akan lakukan dengan apa yang mereka dapat. Well, it stuffy for me. Dan kemudian akan terdengar "Wah keren lo ya", "Wah asik donk jalan-jalan terus", "Wah hape lo bb seri terbaru", "Wah gw abis ke Bali", "Wah nanti kita ke Singapur", dan "Wah Wah Wah" lainnya ya.

Gw senang mendudukan diri gw diantara temen-temen yang ga bikin gw cape dengan stuffy stuff like what i mention. Gw ga perlu repot gw mau keliatan cantik atau ga, pake baju branded atau ga, tas mahal atau ga, sepatu asli atau ga, mereka kerja dimana, jadi apa, gaji berapa. Temen-temen gw adalah orang-orang pilihan which is yang bisa nerima gw bener-benernya gw bukan gw yang fake. Gw yang fake hanya untuk mereka yang fake juga. Impas!. or mungkin mereka juga ga tau klo mereka fake.hahaha..

Well, be a good friend for someone then s/he will become your good friend in return.(but just don't expect to it too much)

Cheers,

Playfull

Wew, last weekend is a blast. Why? If it possible I might cut my self into 6 or 7 pieces... There's 5 breakfasting together with friends but actually am dying to have breakfasting at home which until now it still a dream to me.

Hoaa banyak banget yang harus gw lakuin pas weekend. Mulai dari saudara dan temennya yang pulang dari negeri jauh, temen-temen yang datang buat buka puasa bareng, dan keinginan hibernasi dirumah tanpa di ganggu gugat. Tapi semua ga bisa gw lakuin secara berbarengan.

Hmm... bukannya gw ga mau ikut jalan-jalan sama sodara dan temennya yang datang dari jauh. Am dying for it. Tapi gw juga harus lebih real, gw udah kerja, dan weekend gw punya tanggung jawab absen ke rumah dan ketemu ade-ade gw walaupun sebentar. Dan belakangan ini mood gw sangat-sangat fluktuatif. Gw jadi kangen masa kebebasan pas waktu itu gw yang ngatur tapi sekarang gw diatur waktu. hiks hiks.Tapi mungkin beberapa orang lupa gw ada di tahap yang sudah berbeda dari sebelumnya. Apa boleh dikata gw sudah puas main begitu kan-walaupun nerimanya susah tapi gw berusaha koq...

Home

Though food in restaurant extremely delicious
Though food in my home isn't my mom's
Though food in my home I can't expect

But I am dying to go home soon
 
I miss my bed
I miss my brothers the most
and where I can spoil

Huft. I am longing my home. my mom. and my mom's food.