Grateful

I should be grateful..

GOD gives me such a wonderful life with its pain and victory, incredible family (mom,dad,brothers), other family, sweet friends, substitutes parents, foster brother and sister, nice working place and so forth.

I should be grateful, shouldn't I?

I must, mustn't I?

Being able to deep-breath in such polluted air in infinite fresh air and to walk on foot across the road full magnificent car and its driver every day, I should be grateful.

Living in this world and become an inspiration to my closest people is such a bless. Being able to complement one and another with my ability to speak harshly and even smoothly is such a wonderful things to do.

Even though in some time I prefer to be solid and solitude, there still part I prefer to be chewy and heavy. I am a human no longer a beast without aim. I am unfathomable human being with uncertain future. The only certain thing is an uncertain future. I am so excited how God will take me in the future. I am more excited how where and when I take the future.

So stop bitching yourself if you find you're stuck in a moment where you want to slap your colleague, or screaming in your senior's faces, or begging to your boss to raise your salary or what ever.

Stop grumbling yourself whether you want everyone nice to you or not, or you wish to have double-digit salary in a wink, or expecting more while you struggle less.

Stop proscribing yourself from being a happy individual, or a magnificent personal, or a high-powered person. 

Where ever you are if you're unchanged your bitching habit it'll remain the same.

Please find things to be altered in yourself into something remarkable and then please accept something that you already choose like it should.

Pengembara

Saya ga tau apa semua orang suka jalan. Tapi saya, YA! Buat saya dengan berjalan saya bisa lebih mendengar suara hati saya sendiri. Mendengar masalah-masalah sendiri. Saya punya banyak masalah. Saya yakin semua orang punya masalah. Masalah yang seringkali membuat orang tidak mengenali jalan keluarnya.

Sekarang saya hanya ingin keluar dari kota ini Bogor - Jakarta dan wilayah sekitarnya karena terlalu penuh terlalu sesak. Penuh dengan orang-orang yang sedikit banyak membunuh saya pelan-pelan dengan begitu banyaknya mobil dan asap knalpot yang cukup untuk menggambar lubang hitam di paru-paru dan jantung saya. Sesak dengan kemunafikan dan kenaifan orang-orang yang layaknya maneqin atau boneka-boneka dengan segala rutinitasnya. Ya saya mau sekali pergi.

Pergi ke tempat yang bisa dengan tidak kawatir saya bisa menghirup udara sedalam-dalam tanpa mencoreng paru-paru saya dengan timbal. Pergi ke tempat saya bisa berjalan kaki sampai kaki saya pegal, berjalan dan berlari. Saya ingin pergi ketempat yang orang-orang nya lebih beradab sama bumi tempat saya bisa berjalan kaki. Saya tidak sanggup menghayalkan jernih dan segarnya udara, itu hanya akan membuat saya semakin menggila dan tidak sabar. Saya ingin kabur.

Saya ga sabar kemana Allah akan membawa saya.

Lee Sun Gyun (이선균)

Don't tell me why.. I don't even know the answer.. It's not Lee Min Ho or Rain or Kim Bum or other Korean male actors.. I just feel that he's really attract me nowadays..


















My fave

Pasta (Again)!

Okay Korean drama Pasta really into me..cinca

I'll set some Pasta that I never knew before

Aglio e Olio - a traditional Italian pasta dish

How to make Aglio e Olio?




Vongole - Spaghetti with clams

How to make vongole?



Nanti dilanjutin lagi deh

Cinta dan Bahagia

Sesaat yang lalu gw merasa indah banget klo bisa menemukan seseorang yang paham dengan jiwa kita. Sedetik kemudian gw disadari kebahagian yang terpancar dari mata-mata tiap orang disekeliling gw. Yang menggugah hati gw adalah kebahagian yang dipancarkan saat dia sedang bersama belahan jiwanya. Pasangan hidup atau Anak. Gw belum pernah tau bagaimana itu dapat merubah kehidupan seseorang tapi melihat itu dari pancaran mata mereka. Bukan..itu bukan kebahagiaan yang selama ini kita punya, itu gambaran kebahagiaan yang lain, yang bukan selama ini kita umbar sana sini. Itu kebahagiaan pribadi yang sifatnya sangat pribadi yang mungkin ga bisa kita bagi dengan orang lain. Kita tidak pernah bisa benar-benar memahami kebahagiaan orang lain dan semua perasaan yang lainnya. Wew, keadaan seperti ini yang kadang-kadang pengen bikin gw cepet-cepet nikah tapi *plak gw harus sadar bagaimana gw akan mencapai kesana dengan posisi gw yang sekarang.

Tapi itu lah kebahagiaan. Gw hanya bisa membaginya lewat senyuman-senyuman saat tau pendaran mata teman-teman gw yang suka memasuki tahap hidup yang baru. Duh jadi merinding. Kapan ya buku hidup aku habis dan berganti yang baru? *can't wait for that ^_^




Cheers,

April 2010

It's tuesday madness. Whooa, I've been leaving my usual cycle. I feel sick about it. It doesn't mean that I don't like what I have now but I need refreshing for something good. It's bee that long I haven't have swimming or even a single jog or even a deep pray in the middle of the night.

I've post something about Pasta below. It's been a loooooong time since I never expected much more in my relationship but now I want to feel that sparkling things and innocent and thrilling treatment in early relationship. I just want it. For sure, It won't take forever because it's only exist in early relationship and it'll become average like other unless each pairs struggle for more.

Lee Sun Gyun (Hangul: 이선균), I must admit it that this is the best from him.. His character, appearance and whole role.



Okay I can't shut my mouth because of pasta. I fall in love with human developing character. Shit, and how it's gonna inspire every people in the world. I can't believe it.

I have nothing interesting to do in this particular month. I have no idea except I work well. O yeah I kinda feel sick with Jakarta, its individualism create traffic, pollution, madness and so fort.

Pasta..pasta..pasta!!

PASTA!

Yep, recently I am crazy about PASTA. But PASTA here, means Korean Drama titled the same. I love how each cast is doing their role perfectly as Chef. I can't imagine Indonesia will have this kind of "sinetron". Now, I am watching episode 11 but what I got from 1 to 10. A LOT. The plot slowly increasing and it makes us (viewer) keep expecting what's next. and since this movie about Pasta and cooking your eyes will be presented with various yummy pasta that make u drooling...ssllllrrrppp!




 

And hell yeah I like how those character development in this drama. I can't believe it there are female character that is very innocent and naive and male character who easily get angry and arrogant. Character development when two people fall in love with is extraordinary, making the relationship a funny, gentle, but full of affection. The Love is visible more on eye's luminescence. Wow, this drama really make me want to feel the sparkle in early relationship more and more

Faking Model

in the middle of touching up

a girl with red

I've been in my deadlock mode on. Mostly I fucked up with words when i saw people. Ohm, am still fucking that bitch in my hell mind. Fuck bitch!!

I've tried being a model for photo-shoot. I wasn't prepared enuff but here what i want to share.

p.s the picture was taken by Andry Jivanta